The Path of Progress

Progress does not always proceed in a solitary direction of forward motion. Often, after advancing a few steps, it regresses backwards as it gradually shifts towards expansion.  It can be challenging to see beyond the parameters of our expectations of where we think we “should” be in life.  At times it may feel as though we are going in circles without making any headway at all.  

I’ve come to realize, when acquiring new habits, lapses into callow automatic reactions are a natural part of the process. For me it is essential during such times to practice patience and unconditional self-acceptance. 

I have two choices when faced with this dilemma: I can choose to condemn and emotionally punish myself for my failures, or I can choose to be gentle with myself, embracing the fact that I am human and have imperfections.  This does not excuse my deeds, I still must take complete responsibility for my actions, but it allows me to detach my conduct from who I am as a person. I am not my behavior and just because I make mistakes, it does not mean I am deplorable individual. When I allow myself to take this perspective, it gives me the opportunity to separate from shame based beliefs, objectively decipher what went wrong and apply this information to future situations.    

Life is a perpetual experiment of trial and error as we are propelled towards self-actualization.  I have no regrets, as such qualms are futile.  Every decision I’ve made has accelerated my growth and allowed me to evolve into the person I am today.  Life is too short to dwell it what could have been if only.  It has been said “the point of power is in the present moment.”  Only when we are completely immersed in the now can change occur. And so it is. 

Birthday Bliss

Twenty -Six years ago at 7:48pm I was plunged into this world.  Innocent and completely connected to the unity of the universe, I had no concept of time or self.  Uncontaminated by the conditioning of society, I existed as pure energy.  As the years progressed and domestication took place, my loving and limitless essence was replaced by fear and restrictions.  I was taught to reject and neglect many aspects of myself as I looked to the others to fulfill my needs and desires. As I placed expectations on this outer reality, it inevitably produced disappointment. 

In a metaphorical sense, we are all fallen angels who descended to this existence to learn to heal ourselves and each other.  Each occurrence and each relationship we encounter is a reflection of our inner world.  These externals serve as a gauge in guiding us towards self-actualization. 

Recently I was told that the Greek translation of the word “uni-verse” is “one-song.” My experiences have revealed to me that the ultimate lesson in life is learning to get back to that innocent consciousness we had as an infant.  I believe life is a progression of growth and transformation as we each strive to reach our infinite possibilities. On an individual level, we are provided with lessons to learn. Sometimes they are achieved with ease. Others may be a struggle, repeating themselves until we surrender. As a species, we are in the continuous cycle of evolution and metamorphosis. Each of us contributes to this process. And by that I mean we all have the ability to make a difference whether it is positive or negative.

Today I chose to direct my energies in a constructive manner. My past was wrought with self-destruction, as I inadvertently shattered my worth. When I finally reached a moment of clarity, I began to mosaic the broken pieces into a beautiful and intricate design. With practice, patience and perseverance, I’m becoming a skilled and successful artist on this canvas we call life. Each breath, each moment, each word and each action I take is carefully constructed with meaningful intent.  And so it is.